Alan Watts ‘On Being God’ – Transcript of the Question and Answers

This is an interesting, enjoyable and inspiring Q&A session with Alan Watts. It’s as enjoyable to listen to as to read so that’s why I did this transcription. The questions are not always audible but Alan’s answers are witty and worth it. The Q&A session begins at the 00:55 mark.

Alan Watts – So let us suppose I’m the patient and you are the students and the doctors. And I suffer from what you’d call a delusion that I’m God. And therefore you might wanna do something about me, or with me, or humor me or ask me questions. And so I’m perfectly willing to submit to your examination and your treatment. And invite you to help yourselves.

Question – When did you become God?

Alan Watts – Now.

Question – Will you marry me?

Alan Watts – No.

Question – Do you sleep on your stomach or your back?

Alan Watts – Sleeping is like politics. One sleeps on the right side, then when you’re tired of that you sleep on the left. When you’re tired of that you you sleep on your back; and when you’re tired of that you sleep on your stomach. And it is thus that the world goes around.

Question – If you’re God now what were you yesterday?

Alan Watts – Now.

Question – How can you become God?

Alan Watts – You don’t become God.

Question – Am I also a God?

Alan Watts – Yes.

Question – Are we the same person?

Alan Watts – No… Remember, three persons but one God.

Question – God, can you tell us a little bit about Satan?

Alan Watts – Could I tell you a little bit about Satan? Yes. Although the matter is a little esoteric. But I told you all about it in the book of Job. Where you will see that in the court of heaven, Satan is the district attorney. He’s not as Christians imagine, the enemy of heaven and the enemy of mankind. He’s merely the person, who sees the bad side of things and carries out the dirty work. And therefore, he saw Job and wondered whether Job really was as great guy as he seemed to be. And suggested that God should appoint a committee of investigation to find out. And the committee did its work very thoroughly but the case went against Satan. Because it was proven in the end that Job was an honorable man. Now you noticed that although we pay the salary of the district attorney whenever there’s a great criminal case before the public eye – people begin to take the side of the underdog. And the prosecutor always has less public sympathy, than the defense. Except in political trials. On the right hand of God, and you know the defense is always on the right hand of the judge in court. Is our only mediator and advocate, which is the phrase referring to Jesus Christ our Lord. So there is the defense and there is the prosecution. And it is the function of Satan to be the prosecutor. There is a good deal more to it than that because before all has started. Lies in a stage play there was an arrangement in the green room before coming on stage. In which, certain things were understood. But that are only to be revealed when the curtain goes down at the end of the play.

Question – Is Job God too?

Alan Watts – Yes, but he doesn’t know it.

Question – God, why do you hide from sight of so many?

Alan Watts – Why do you hide? It’s for the same reason you’re hiding.

Question – God, did you create man?

Alan Watts – Yes.

Question – And God?

Alan Watts – Who else?

Question – Does man have free will?

Alan Watts – Man has free will to the extent that he knows who he is. Not otherwise.

Question – Where did you get free will from?

Alan Watts – Where I got it from? (laughs)

Question – Do women have free will too?

Alan Watts – Yes, to the extent she knows who she is, yes.

Question – If man has free will on knowing just who he is and man is God. Then, you’re saying your no more than any other God in this room? Or any man.

Alan Watts – That’s correct, I’m no more God than any of you.

Question – Then you only have the power to know who you are?

Alan Watts – Well, that is saying quite a bit yes.

Question – What is not God?

Alan Watts – What is not God? There is nothing that is not God. And when you know your like everybody’s dream of the sultan and the paradise you suddenly notice there’s a button labeled ‘Surprise’. You push that – and here we are.

Question – How do you learn who you are.

Alan Watts – It’s like waking up from a dream. After a while once experiences begins to have a, what I would call “haven’t we been here before feeling?”. Going round and round and round. And then you begin wondering, where am I going? And to answer that question you have to try to find out what you want. And so I went into that very thoroughly, what do I want to happen? And of course as soon as you ask yourself that you begin to fantasize. And our amazing technology is of course an expression of human desire, desire for power – for what we want to achieve. So I simply set myself to thinking through how far we could go? And so I soon found myself at a great push-button place. Where I had a fantastic mechanism with buttons available for every conceivable thing I could wish. So I spent quite a bit of time playing with those. And science fiction wasn’t in it. You know you go “Going!” like that and here is Cleopatra. And so on you then press this button a symphonic music in a four channel sound. Ahmm, sixteen channel sound. Anything! You know all possible pleasures are available. And when you know your like everybody’s dream of the sultan and the paradise you suddenly notice there’s a button labeled Surprise. You push that – and here we are.

Question – Boredom problem?

Alan Watts – Yes, boredom is of course the problem. Boredom is the other side of creativity. And the energy of creation (Yang) has as its Yin side, the Yin side of that energy is called boredom. Everything of course is fundamentally Yang and Yin. If you understand that you really don’t need to understand anything else.

Question – As God, what responsibility do you feel to ameliorate the evil in the world?

Alan Watts – As God, what responsibility do I feel to ameliorate the evil in the world? I begin with the point that I’m responsible for the way the world is. If I couldn’t feel that then I’d blame somebody else. I’m not willing to do that. Because I know that under various changing circumstances it might be appropriate for me to be as bigger rascal as rascal has been. As to improving the world, the world is always improving. It may look to some people as slow. But it’s improving even as it is declining. Because the world works in an undulatory process. Like the wave, it goes up and it goes down, it goes up and it goes down. And it couldn’t go up all the time because if it did we wouldn’t know that was up. So it goes down some of the time so the we can know when it goes up because if we didn’t know when it went up it would be like being in a space – where everything was light. There would be nothing to write home about. There would be no black marks on the space and so it’ll be like a piece of perfectly empty paper. Similarly to be to be in a complete black space, would also be an unconsciousness with nothing to write home about. As nothing would ever make a difference. So therefore if your going to have black, you won’t know its black unless you have some white – and if you’re going to have white, you won’t know its white unless you have some black.

Question – Why do you teach us all to love one another? Because if we get to that point there won’t be any ups and downs – that happen anyway.

Alan Watts – Correct! But that’s not a teaching it’s a koan. A koan is Japanese word for a spiritual problem used in Zen Buddhism. Such as “What is the sound of one hand” and these problems are given to those who ask questions concerning their spiritual development. And sometimes as St. Paul pointed out commandments are not given in the expectation that they will be obeyed. But in the expectation that they will reveal something to those who hear them. That was St. Paul comment on the whole Mosaic law.

Question – If we accept that we try to se that we’re all God. Is there a heaven, is there a hell.

Alan Watts – The hereafter is of course here now. Because if you’ll examine it closely there is no when else than now. And if you want to make hell of it, you can make hell of it. If you want to make heaven out of it, you can make heaven of it. Purgatory, purgatory. It’s all here. Always was always will be.

Question – What is death?

Alan Watts – Death is an undulation in consciousness. How would you know if you were alive unless you’ve once been dead?

Question – If you’re saying your ways are the same as Jesus in the name of God. Why was it unnecessary for him to have material possessions and necessary for you?

Alan Watts – It wasn’t unnecessary for him to have material possessions. They said of St. John The Baptist that he was an ascetic but of Jesus consults with — and wine gibbers and comes eating and drinking. And when lady Mary poured precious ointment on his feet and anointed him. They said the same thing that the members of the vestry to the minister today “Why this great expense? Couldn’t it all be sold for much money and given to the poor?”.

Question – It is a problem

Alan Watts – It is a problem, sure. But you see, in many ways when you get down to these very deep ethical problem, where there sure is no easy decision one way or the other. You must look at the problem from the point of view of an artist. Which way of doing this, is in some sense greater? It may be better to go off with a bang than a with a whimper.

Question – Are you God all the time or conscious all the time?

Alan Watts – There is no time my dear it’s always now.

Question – During every event… in space time… every precise moment…?

Alan Watts – Yes if you put it that way of course.

Question – …Consciously God as an experiencing unit on this plane…

Alan Watts – Wait a moment. Consciously? Not necessarily. Because that would spoil the fun. If you press button Surprise, you’ll press the button so that you forget who you are.

Question – So you don’t always know of the answer to a given problem.

Alan Watts – Yes, that’s perfectly true. This is called in the Bible kenosis. In St. Paul’s epistle to the Philippians he says “let this mind be in you which was also in Christ Jesus, Who, being in the form of God, thought not equality with God a thing to be grasped”. But humbled himself, made himself of no reputation and was found in fashion as a man and became obedient to death. And so you get from this the kenotic theory of creation. Held by some of the Greek fathers. That the creation of the universe is the self-emptying or the self-forgetting of the Godhead.

Question – How does your concept of the creation evolve so that man of critique comes from a buddhist is different from the story of the man beating his head to the wall so that he can feel how good it is to die?

Alan Watts – It’s really rather like it, because the universe is fundamentally a system which creeps up on itself and then says “BOOOH!”. And then it laughs at itself for jumping, and you see every time it does it, it forgets it did it before. So it never becomes a bore.

Question – Can you make yourself into a point of consciousness and travel around cosmos such as Dr. Lily was speaking of last night? In talking of —.

Alan Watts – Yes, but it’s not necessarily travel. (Re-reading the question “Can I make myself into a point of consciousness and travel around the cosmos, and see things from all sorts of places.”) Yes, but it isn’t necessarily travel, one is already there. In other words, I’m using your eyes, where you are. Like you’re using mine. Just in the same way my head is not my feet, it uses my feet. The head is very different from the feet. You couldn’t possible say the head and the feet are the same but they are one organism.

Question – They each have a soul.

Alan Watts – Two.

Question – What do you do about boredom?

Alan Watts – Press button ‘surprise’.

Question – Oh it’s always this?

Alan Watts – Always.

Question – You talk about boredom it seems to me at least in my own case, and in many people’s, that one of the biggest problems in life is being forced to earn a living in something which is what I’d rather not be doing. And I often wonder is the answer to move somewhere and live on less money and do the things that I’d like to do, or must I resign myself as many people have to? To do what I guess would be the bread and then in spare time try to make up. With as many days and weeks in a year… What is the answer?

Alan Watts – Well there are two sort of answers which you’ve already indicated. Which is to live with less and do what you want.

Question – …which one is that? You know those things… we sort of expect in life would not get done.

Alan Watts – I think the objection ‘if every one did that’ is rather like asking: What would happen if everybody wanted to catch the four o’clock train from Grand Central to Westport. Or if all the molecules of air in this room were suddenly to congregate over in that corner. There is a bare chance that might happen, but very low.

Question –  Would you say we’re going around in circles trying to eliminate evil, because we never will and there might not be an evil…inaudible…playing games?

Alan Watts – Yes, we’re going around in circles but you see going around in circles as you may have observed by looking at the sky is what the universe is doing. You see, before…

Question – As long as we recognize we’re going in circles, we’re alright?

Alan Watts – Yes. That’s the thing it’s a dance and when you dance you don’t dance to get somewhere. Yes all right but when you wake up you turn the confusion into a dance and so I get back to your question “what is the alternative to clearing out of the job you’re doing and to say doing with less but having more fun”. Well there are ways of making almost any activity into a dance. Supposing you have to drive a bus in New York, which is a very harrowing job in the ordinary way. You must not take seriously anything about it. This is the first rule, that it doesn’t matter a damn if you get there on time. But it would be fun to go as fast as is consistent with safety and therefore you swing that bus and you play things with the horn, you take the whole thing lightly as if it is not serious. And because this is the nature, say in ritual, when you have a procession. Now people who don’t understand religion don’t know how to make the right kind of processions. There are those who go in military march and they don’t understand it because their objective is to get there. There are those who dawdle like ducks and they don’t understand because they are trying to be dignified. On the other hand there those who walk as if they had already arrived and this is the way kings walk. Because a king is the center and he’s always where it’s at. Where it’s at is where the king is by definition.

So if you work i this way even, I mean, people who are practicing meditation take up monotonous things for fun and meditation is supposed to be fun. I hope John Lilly told you that this morning.

Well you say you’re going to do “Om Mani Padme Hum”  – you know you can really have a gas doing that. And so that anything monotonous can be treated in the same way. This is the way, one of the ways of overcoming boredom. Those boredoms are the great problem for energy. The energy is always on the go.

…Yes sir, the gentleman in the white shirt. Mythic? No mythic is a great word. (Can you repeat the question).

Question – Does it bother me to be called mythic?

Alan Watts – No. Myth is very powerful. Myth is fun. Myth is stories told stories told to children. Everybody loves them.

Question – Is God omniscient?

Alan Watts – Well, it depends on what you mean by the word. A lot of people think that omniscience is like knowing everything that’s in the Encyclopedia Britannica. That’s not omniscience, that’s the select intellectual elephantiasis.

Now you see, let me explain this question because it’s always important and when anybody that he or she is God. People say at once, well will you tell us in millimetres the height of Mont Blanc. When I say look it up in the encyclopedia it’s there. Thing is this, what we ordinary call knowledge is the translation of life into words. And that is a very cumbersome process. Because if we had to translate the process into words every time we took a breath we’d never get around to it. It takes so long to describe and think through the whole physiology of breath. Therefore we do it without thinking about it. And I find that I’m shining the stars in just the same way. I mean if you wanted it in words it’s going to take us a long time to get through them because words are strung out in a line.

Question – How do you, if you’re a God, how do you find such a difficulty in finding peace and tranquility in yourself.

Alan Watts – That’s because you’re looking for it away from the place in which you are. You are seeking it apart from the experience which you have at this moment. And you’re regarding that experience and saying that’s pretty lousy I’d like something better than that. But the trouble with that is that it splits you into two pieces. And once you’re split in two pieces you’re lost. Because you’ve made a difference between the experience you are now having on the one hand and yourself who’s having it on the other. And you wish you could get away from that experience, now the truth of the matter is you can’t because you are what you experience. It’s a myth, surely that there is some sort of experiencer who has the experience. You are what you know because it’s that I know something but there’s simply a process the knowing. You could say that knowing like the world has two poles like the north and the south, and so the knowing-ball has the knower and the known but only in that sense.

Now, knowing changes it changes itself. But if you try to stand outside it and change it it’ll be like standing outside your hand and trying to move your hand from outside. And so comes the difficulty. In other words this would be a difficulty for God in the press-button-surprise situation. Where you think you want something different from what you have. But if you do think that you’ve got to ask yourself the question “what is it that you really want?”. This is the most fundamentally important question, and you will find if you go into it very deeply that you have it.

Now, you may change your mind about it. But you do have what you want.

Question – God, if this place caught on fire I’d find myself so scared that I wonder if I’d also feel that I was God? And if I am God and scared, what do I do about that?

Alan Watts – Well, one of the ways of not being bored is to scare yourself. Don’t we all go to the movies just to be scared? We put some limits on it indeed before we go and say it’s a “well this isn’t really going to happen, it’s only a play or a movie”. And therefore while we see the safe outline of the proscenium arch back in the back of our minds as a sort of hintergedanke (German word meaning without any ulterior goals, as in nothing intended outside of the theatre stage or cinema screen) we know it’s only a play.

Question – I’m talking about what isn’t knowing.

Alan Watts – How do you you know it isn’t?

You see after all the totally the task of the actor on the stage is to come on so well that the audience thinks it’s real. So that he has them crying so that he has them shaking with fear, so he has them sitting on the edges of their chairs. Well that’s just one ordinary Joe doak’s actor but supposing the actor or the play is the real big actor? Wow! That play would seem real and so that’s what happens when the house catches on fire.

Yes, lady in red yes you’re looking behind yourself.

Question – What is sleep?

Alan Wats – What is sleep? The seventh day.

Question – When is the seventh day?

Alan Watts – When is the seventh day? When you sleep.

Yes.

Question – Yes God. The only reason I know that I’m a goddess is because I take the responsibility for it. Isn’t that the answer to the lady’s question about the fire?

Alan Watts – Oh yes. That also, it would, would answer it. Yes. You… it’s a question of taking responsibility for what happens.

Question – What happens if you don’t do anything about…

Alan Watts – If I don’t do anything about the world?

Audience – The boredom.

Alan Watts – Well that’s another way. That’s another way. You can explore boredom, you can bore into boredom and watch it. Sometimes when you’re bored that’s the only thing to do. Because even for God you can’t lift yourself up by your own bootstraps. Because that is by nature of the definition impossible.

Question – You said… You would… Toy of having a myth of you?

Alan Watts – Yes, I think that would be fun. I mean why else does one go on stage except to make myths?

Question – (inaudible)

Alan Watts – Excuse me, what did you say? 

Question – What is your motivation for going on stage?

Alan Watts – What is my motivation for going on the stage? That is like asking why is there a universe. Well now if you listened to George Leonard last night. George Leonard explained how children will be fuddled by being taught to ask why about everything. Because you always look away from what you’re asking about, to its antecedents. And that won’t lead you anywhere at all.

Why am I here? And I answer that question, then somebody says “well why that?” and then somebody says “Well why that? Why that? Why that?” and you get back, and back, and back and eventually you get tired of answering. And so fathers when their children say “Why daddy? Why? Why?” they say oh shut up and eat your lollipop!

So… But what happens you see, when we trace the causation of things into the past it all begins to fade out. In silence and no answer.

Why?

Huh!

Because it didn’t begin there, the universe begins now.  It didn’t begin in the past and the past trails back from now like the wake of a ship.

Question –  If everything is God and there is no time except now. What is the role of chance?

Alan Watts – Chance pairs with order. We’ll say randomness, we’ll call it and it pairs with order, and it is part of the nature of order. If you know what you mean by order, you know that you mean contrast with randomness. And if you know what you mean by randomness, you know that you mean contrast with order. So if you want to have order you must have randomness. And vice versa.

Question – Did you have this much karisma before you discovered your true nature?

Alan Watts – Yes, yes. But he came out in a different way.

Question – I think there’s a sort of danger here, the rhythms are funny. And if you find the time to think each one through it would be quite profound. There’s a certain danger, of everything and everyone being God. Really, if you found yourself as god, then you know that certain things that you as God created that don’t personally affect you. You created for a reason and you stay out of them, and you go on (inaudible). But if you think you’re God and you try to go into too much social action and change the evils of this world. You end up hurting yourself and a lot of people when you’re playing God, and not really being god

Alan Watts – Well I admit to you my dear that this is a very very dangerous conversation. And that I thoroughly agree with. But we didn’t come here, did we, to play it safe? All, all profound ideas and profound questions are dangerous. It is dangerous to go into science, as we all know too well. It is dangerous to go into medicine. Dangerous to go into writing because the pen is often mightier than the sword. And, so I don’t think we should withdraw from certain things because they’re dangerous. But I entirely agree with you, that if I were, as it were, in the Spirit of God to go about social reform. I would be failing to realize the construction of my own universe. Which is that, when you interfere with it, you’ve got to know exactly how you’re interfering. Otherwise the most amazingly unexpected things will happen. So when people ask some miracles they don’t realize what the miracles involve. I mean if I turned the microphone into a rabbit, it’s altogether possible that you might drop dead. Because those events might be connected.

 

Question – Did you ever study with Carl Jung?

Alan Watts – Did I have a study with Carl Jung? Or knew him?

Question – Or ever work with him?

Alan Watts – I didn’t study with him, I knew him and I read a lot of his writings.

Yes.

Question – The notion of watching yourself, watching your world, being aware of yourself. That does imply that there is a separation somewhere…

Alan Watts – It does in a way. Yes, and it depends how you’re watching. I some… There is a very interesting thing that comes up in this respect with regard to the Bhagavad-Gita and to the Yoga Sutra. Where they talk about the witness, there is as it were behind our ordinary self with its emotions and involvement a witness self. That does nothing more than perceive what happens. And this is the Atman or the “Purusha”. Which is not involved and some of you, no doubt especially in times of crisis, has suddenly discovered this sort of witness. Center behind everything that just isn’t involved. Most terrible things can be going on, but the witness is impassive. Now when we go into these states we’ve got to be very careful of our descriptive language. Because the descriptive language makes the witness seem something apart from what is happening. In such a way that if we want to become really sort of skitzy and catatonic about things. We can always be withdrawn and go in and in and identify ourselves with the solitaire and uninvolved witness. Who is merely a hangout for the ego, as when the police raid a house in which there are burglars. And the burglars know they’ll be caught if they’re on the ground floor, so they got the first floor. So then the police come up with the first floor, they’re up in the secondT they, finally they get to the roof where the open sky and the infinite. And in this way, this was why the Buddha did not teach about the Atman. The real self within us because he knew people would use the real self as a hideout for the ego. And so when, say Krishnamurti, tries to explain this, he, he doesn’t talk about the witness. He talks about awareness and people say to him “But who is aware?” “What is aware?”. And he seems a little sticky in his answer here because, what is, what is the matter is that: the people asking the question to be witched by grammar. They are using a language in which it is part of the grammatical convention that the verb always have a noun subject. Now how on Earth do verbs get started by nouns I ask you? How can a thing start a process?

Surely this is really the same problem Descartes was wrestling with when he tried to find out how spirit could influence matter. Or her mind could influence body. Because everybody knows that all proper ghosts walk straight through walls without disturbing the bricks. So how can the ghosts in the machine, as curse Laputa put it, the soul in the body, how can it do anything to the body with no connection to different realms? The point is when we’re talking about this awareness, what we call thought, feeling sensation emotion, we could say in a very clumsy ways it’s aware of itself. It’s the very nature there wouldn’t be sensation without awareness. You don’t have to have some thing, oh, which is aware of it. Any more than you have to have a thing called lightning which does something called flashing. The flashing is the lightning and so awareness is the one who’s aware of it.
Could say this awareness, if I say I am aware the word I, as William James, suggested is simply a word of position. Like this, or here, awareness here and your awareness there.

Yes sir.

 

Transcription to be continued…

Question – 

yes life is like one great cone no death
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is not the solution it has no solution
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otherwise it wouldn’t happen you see the
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thing is like this this is what is hard
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for Westerners especially to understand
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I said if you understand the yang in the
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Yi and you don’t need to ask any further
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questions and all you aging buffs or to
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know this by now what is not a component
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of Western common sense is that nothing
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is something now that may sound a little
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contradictory but I think I can explain
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it we treat nothingness as if it were
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ineffective as if it wasn’t really
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important at all and yet when we look
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out at the night and we see all these
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stars in space try and imagine what the
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heavens would look like if there weren’t
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any space then obviously there wouldn’t
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be any stones I mean you could think
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that it will all be jammed together in a
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lump there are various objections to
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that how would you see the edge of the
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lump and know it was alone without space
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around it furthermore we know when we
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investigate the constitution of matter
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physically that at the atomic level
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there’s more space in something than
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there is anything else most of it is
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empty which led a physicist at the
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Argonne lab at the University of Chicago
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had become a little nutty he was so
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impressed with the emptiness of matter
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that he went around in the most enormous
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padded slippers in case he should fall
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through the floor
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stuff so now what the point I’m making
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is this if space is essential to solid
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it’s perfectly obvious then that nothing
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is essential to something if you can’t
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have something about nothing means
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nothing is pretty powerful stuff because
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something comes out of it but like that
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it’s a dogma of Western thought
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expressed in the Latin phrase ex nihilo
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near fit out of nothing comes nothing
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but that’s not so out of nothing comes
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something now you would say well if
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something comes out of nothing there
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must be some kind of mystery inside
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nothing it must have a secret structure
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of some kind I mean there must be sort
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of electrical goings-on this is the
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trouble they have about cosmology how
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could this world generate could just be
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out of free-floating hydrogen no we’re
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just it much simpler idea than that it
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comes out of real solid nothing it’s so
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simple look if you if you if you listen
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you see you live in a world where
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there’s only sound for a moment you’ll
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hear every sound coming out of silence
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what are these sounds come from are they
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come out of silence
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suddenly bowing and you can accustom
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yourself to seeing light doing the same
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thing you can open your eyes and see all
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this world emerging out of nothing
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bowing like that and fading off into the
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palace so that’s what the future is
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unknown because the future is zero and
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everybody who tries to know it and
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that’s the whole endeavor of you see
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trying to be God you don’t need to try
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to be God you are but if you try to be
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God it means you don’t know you are and
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therefore you try to know and dominate
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the future and you you believe prophets
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and things like that well few dopes
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prophecy is simply contaminating the
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future with the past
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projecting what we know upon the unknown
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and that’s why really things like
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astrology although interesting or rather
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ridiculous because if you know the
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future there’s no surprise for you a
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completely known future is past you’ve
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had it there are two answers to that
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question this is a real fun question I
42:46
love it the question is about now he’s
42:50
saying really there is no now there is
42:53
the future and the past come together
42:54
the future turns into the past little
42:57
bit and it’s gone like that so you know
42:59
in no time at all the future has become
43:02
past as if we get this frantic feeling
43:04
well where do you go well let’s take the
43:12
small view first of all the now is
43:15
infinitely short and yet it’s the only
43:18
thing that is in that case this whole
43:22
world is an illusion it doesn’t really
43:26
exist so I when the king the emperor
43:33
Akbar once was feeling a little sorry
43:36
for himself and asked his jewelers said
43:40
make me a ring that will restrain me in
43:44
prosperity and support me in adversity
43:47
and so the jeweler made him a ring gave
43:50
it to the Emperor and he saw written on
43:52
it it will pass
43:56
now the other side of the matter is this
43:59
that this short now is an illusion of
44:02
the clock we make our second marks on
44:06
clocks as thin as is consistent with
44:10
visibility and therefore we always think
44:13
of the present that’s crossing the
44:14
hairline tick that’s too long
44:17
see how short can you get see but really
44:23
the present isn’t like that at all the
44:25
everything you know there is nowhere
44:30
else but now everything that happens is
44:33
happening now well it’s like your field
44:36
of vision your field of vision isn’t
44:37
just a point of light your field of
44:40
vision is an oval and at the it isn’t
44:43
fuzzy at the edges it just ceases to be
44:46
at the edges without there’s plenty of
44:50
room in it to see something move across
44:52
so in your field of time you’re now
44:55
there is enough now to include a phrase
44:59
of music if there weren’t you wouldn’t
45:02
be able to make out melodies because
45:03
they’re just be instantaneous notes with
45:06
no connection between you would never
45:08
hear intervals so now is a big sloppy
45:12
thing it comes out of nothing
45:18
yes ladies standing by the pillow
45:34
so the question is is there there no
45:36
need for man to seek for a meaning in
45:40
his life not only his life but the life
45:44
of the universe right no there is no
45:50
need to seek for a meaning meaning I use
45:55
the word in rather a definite way and
45:57
for me meaning is a function of signs
46:02
particularly of words and symbols
46:06
meaning is the referent of words as when
46:10
we take the word water the meaning of it
46:17
is something drinkable whereas the sound
46:20
water is not drinkable so therefore if
46:25
we ask life to have a meaning we look
46:30
for something other than life to be that
46:32
meaning and therefore we reduce life to
46:35
a being mere words and mere symbol now
46:39
of course you may use the word meaning
46:41
in a less precise way and say now
46:46
although the music of Bach has no
46:49
meaning in the sense that it is not like
46:51
the music of Tchaikovsky designed to
46:54
imitate natural events and noises
46:57
nevertheless it has meaning in the sense
46:59
that it enchants us it the patterns of
47:03
it ravish us in the same way as abstract
47:06
patterns in an arabesque that’s a little
47:11
different sense of the word meaning and
47:14
yes I would say that life has that kind
47:17
of man
47:17
but that you don’t seek it because if
47:21
you seek it you lose it
47:22
I see the process of life as an
47:27
essentially musical process which has no
47:31
meaning except itself it is going round
47:35
in circles like we love to spin in
47:36
circles when we are down
47:38
sing like children love to spin around
47:40
in circles till they get dizzy that’s
47:42
fun
47:42
and so the articulation of wonderful
47:46
patterns is the meaning of life
47:49
if you seek for meaning now this applies
47:54
to all seekers I’m sorry growth seekers
47:57
but seeking Zahl right I mean it’s a
48:05
free country but it go invariably takes
48:13
you away from what you’re looking for
48:15
because every search supposes I will
48:21
find it later
48:22
not now in the next moment that somehow
48:27
by some gimmick by some exercise by some
48:30
process of transformation I will later
48:35
discover what I want
48:38
this is postponement yes yes well this
49:07
is a matter of words my friend because
49:10
you may think the dancing is superficial
49:13
whereas I think it’s profound and so on
49:18
and that I suggested two meanings of the
49:22
word meaning one of which is merely
49:26
reduces life to being symbolic of
49:30
something else something always beyond
49:32
then I’m going to ask what’s the meaning
49:34
of that and then we get into that
49:37
infinite regression of questions I feel
49:40
that instead of getting into these
49:41
infinite regressions of what is beneath
49:43
what is behind look it’s right out in
49:46
front of you now and when you catch on
49:50
to that now gets very profound I mean
49:54
it’s the moment when nothing becomes
49:55
something and I don’t see how much
49:58
profounder than that you can get yes oh
50:08
yes I’m telling that’s I agree with
50:10
seeking can be fun but it won’t get you
50:13
to what you’re looking for see it’s away
50:19
seeking is a way of postponing finding
50:23
let’s put it off you see children on a
50:25
hot day they are terribly thirsty they
50:28
say let’s get an ice cream soda now the
50:30
kids is know let’s get thirsty er so
50:32
when we finally get the ice cream soda
50:34
with our real song
50:37
this is the principle of postponement
50:39
and everybody who is questing was
50:41
practicing yoga and Zen meditation all
50:44
that kind of thing he’s putting off that
50:46
ice cream soda what do I propose nothing
51:11
it’s doing something or thinking
51:14
something we definitely are not just
51:16
feeling that we’re gonna sit and let
51:17
everything happen when I come here yeah
51:29
but I mean look here when you ask always
51:34
why did you come
51:35
I repeat that is a barren question why
51:41
did you do it why did this happen it
51:43
goes a question that Peters out so this
51:48
is this is not important what is
51:50
important surely is it is is this
51:52
immediate now not why are we here but
51:56
what are we here in unless you live in
52:00
the eternal now consciously you have no
52:03
use for plans because people who live in
52:07
the future or for the future when their
52:10
plans come off they are not they’re
52:13
enjoying them they are planning for
52:14
another future they never catch up with
52:16
themselves
52:20
nothing matter tell you about your
52:24
future in the mouth yes in that sense of
52:28
course when you make plans you plan now
52:30
and that can be a gas making plans but
52:35
for goodness sake do it in the now
52:37
spirit rather than as it were oh if I
52:40
can’t wait till that happens because
52:43
then if you’re in I can’t wait spirit
52:45
you just bolt life like somebody
52:47
swallowing food so fast they can either
52:49
taste not adjusted yes something ii
52:54
wonder what is in a search is the way of
52:56
intellectually trying to figure it out a
52:58
planet whose the way of experiencing it
53:01
even part of your experience to be
53:03
taking in what would happen in the
53:05
future and that second way isn’t a bad
53:07
search it’s just really big yeah so
53:11
isn’t there a type that’s the type of
53:13
searching for meaning that would be okay
53:16
well yes ah there is a the searching in
53:22
a spirit that the search is more fun
53:25
than the finding you know that when
53:28
you’re when you’re traveling for example
53:30
going somewhere is is the real joy of it
53:33
often that’s the fallacy of the jet
53:35
plane that it abolished is distances
53:38
between places and all places which have
53:41
a distance abolished between them become
53:42
the same place so there’s no point going
53:46
to Tokyo if it’s already Los Angeles I
53:49
mean this is the thing yes it’s a hand
53:53
here
54:08
well the comment is about seeking is it
54:11
necessarily a road like taking a road or
54:14
is seeking also conceivable as readiness
54:19
to receive well of course the road isn’t
54:23
a merely Western analog it’s a very
54:25
common metaphor the the paths and the
54:29
stages of the path the steps of the path
54:31
are used in both east and west but the
54:36
Chinese word for the way is Dao Dao
54:40
and the path is what we’re looking for
54:45
in the Chinese sense you see the Dao is
54:48
the works baby that is the which than
54:50
which there is no witcher and there to
54:52
be in harmony with the way to be on the
54:55
way you see but the dow isn’t going
54:58
anywhere and that’s like when the
55:02
chinese poet is wandering in the forest
55:03
and he looks at the clouds and he says
55:08
where are they going
55:09
no one knows where does this path lead
55:12
no one cares
55:14
I’m wandering on and on in a great
55:16
forest without thought of return that is
55:20
poetic feeling to the Far East both of
55:23
the Japanese and the Chinese they call
55:25
that spirit you again and I it’s the
55:29
mysterious going nowhere Nisour things
55:34
the wandering spirit so that sort of
55:41
seeking is different from anxiety to get
55:48
something in the future which you don’t
55:49
have now yes sir what just existing now
55:56
and experiencing everything anything
56:00
your evening well pure hedonism is a
56:08
quest for pleasure the hedonist in that
56:12
sense of the word would not live in the
56:14
eternal now if he found it not
56:18
altogether enjoyable he would then read
56:24
romances of the past or fantasies of the
56:27
future to get away from now because what
56:30
he’s looking for is pleasure but when we
56:33
look for pleasure
56:34
you see we split ourselves we divide
56:38
ourselves from pleasure in seeking it
56:40
and in trying to get away from pain we
56:43
divide ourselves from pain not realizing
56:46
that that’s what creates pain is the
56:49
division of experience so that the
56:53
wholeness of experience is broken and we
56:55
are disintegrated yes and something
57:03
category it’s not just an intellectual
57:06
fallacy there’s no such thing as any
57:08
category that’s true categories do not
57:14
really exist in nature categories are
57:17
like taking a network printed on
57:21
cellophane and putting it over a picture
57:24
of a forest and then numbering the trees
57:27
according to what squares they’re in on
57:29
the cellophane that’s categorization in
57:34
that category nothing this really is
57:36
anything no such things that category
57:38
out there oh I said it was thoroughly
57:40
empty but wait a minute it isn’t it is a
57:46
category in the sense that something is
57:49
its limit so it has an edge and that’s
57:55
what you see in the yang yin diagram no
58:02
I I don’t want to comment on China at
58:05
the moment
58:07
that about pain yes what I was trying to
58:11
say about pain is this we are in a split
58:16
relationship with the contents of our
58:18
experience the knower and the known then
58:24
there is the knower is opposed with a
58:27
known called pleasure and tries to
58:30
identify with it the knower is
58:33
confronted with a known called pain and
58:35
tries to be disentangled front but it is
58:42
this very split it is trying to get away
58:46
from pain that makes pain painful it’s
58:49
as if you got caught in some brambles
58:52
and you pulled away from and they just
58:54
dug more deeply into your skin you would
58:57
have to go the other direction to let
58:59
the brambles out you’d have to go into
59:01
the bush yeah yeah so I mean that’s only
59:07
a metaphor but the point is that as we
59:11
keep got this distinction of the knower
59:14
from the known we are always running
59:17
away and wanted to change experience and
59:21
there’s a fundamental there for escape
59:22
in every project to transform
59:25
consciousness there is a an escape from
59:28
what is and when you realize you cannot
59:32
get away from what is not should you not
59:35
might you but you can then at that point
59:39
when you realize you can’t get away from
59:40
what is there’s nothing left to you but
59:42
to watch it and then for the first time
59:44
you are taking a good look at your real
59:46
self because your real self is there
59:49
happening
59:51
those Chinese call it Zeron nature what
59:54
is so of itself and that’s you and you
59:58
is this happening and it’s everything
60:00
that you’re aware of is you’re happening
60:02
and a good deal more besides you’re not
60:04
aware of all of yourself like you don’t
60:07
have an immediate V Division of the
60:08
contents of your stomach they haven’t
60:10
got eyes down there um yes sir what is
60:15
your train
60:20
yes at least you see I know when I’m
60:24
confronted with the beautiful or when I
60:26
pass into the beautiful as I know when I
60:28
pass into the ugly when I try to say
60:33
what these are or what my criteria are
60:35
all I’m doing is I’m trying to find a
60:38
form of words that will apply to all my
60:44
different sensations of beauty or of
60:46
ugliness the problem is not to know what
60:51
is beautiful but to know how to put it
60:53
into linear language that’s where the
60:58
company complexity comes in we very well
61:01
know what is beautiful but when we come
61:04
to talk about the words disappear I mean
61:08
here’s our fundamental problem because
61:11
you see in a certain way what we mean by
61:13
sense is God now it isn’t not that God
61:22
doesn’t have a sense of nonsense look at
61:24
giraffes for heaven’s sakes but it’s his
61:31
whole thing with one form is could God
61:34
make a stone so heavy that he couldn’t
61:36
lift it that is an equivalent question
61:39
to say could God make a dead body into a
61:42
living body that is was the same
61:45
question as asking could a dead body be
61:47
a living body and that is the same
61:49
question as asking could the head be the
61:51
feet
62:01
yes that’s a different matter now look
62:10
one of the most interesting meditations
62:12
is to think about death and imagine what
62:16
it would be like to go unconscious and
62:18
never become conscious again that is as
62:23
Keats said of the Grecian urn it teases
62:26
you out of thought and while you think
62:30
of that say good heavens fancy never
62:32
never coming to again you get a mirror
62:36
image thought which is about your birth
62:40
my goodness you came to without ever
62:43
having gone unconsciously that’s pretty
62:48
weird
62:48
and it seems to me that if that happened
62:51
once it can happen again
62:53
now what happens is this when you die
62:59
boy there’s a blank and the next thing
63:05
you know is this as you did it before
63:16
because every eye that comes into this
63:19
world is I it’s me it’s you on this
63:27
level it is diversified but yet I as
63:33
always central everyone feels is the
63:34
center of the universe and on the
63:37
surface of a sphere any point may be the
63:39
center of the surface so here it is
63:48
every time it happens it’s me so I
63:53
should worry about reincarnation
63:57
yes according to the Sufi doctor you
64:00
reach the third level you supposed to
64:02
have the choice you don’t have to be
64:04
reincarnated you feel that is that some
64:08
time all-wise action is never the result
64:12
of choice wise action is never the
64:16
result of choice
64:19
none choice implies ignorance indecision
64:25
when you know what to do you don’t
64:28
choose you do it what what question
64:38
could you ask about love what is love
64:44
love is not a pod love is the energy of
64:54
the world and nobody can say what that
64:57
is if anybody were to say what God is or
65:01
what the energy of the world is he would
65:03
be talking nonsense now there are times
65:06
when it is important to talk nonsense
65:09
because we can discover the energy of
65:12
the universe through nonsense when you
65:15
say you take a sound that really doesn’t
65:18
mean anything much like Oh
65:29
that’s the energy of the universe going
65:31
digging see as you listen to sound
65:37
that’s why music is a marvelous support
65:40
for meditation digging sound listening
65:45
just listening to that hum there goes
65:48
the energy of the universe see what is
65:51
it that’s what it is he looks it yeah
66:06
yes yeah that’s right
66:16
then if you do that it isn’t meditation
66:19
meditation is centered in the here and
66:21
now done for some other reason it isn’t
66:24
meditation it stops dead right there
66:28
what is Satori Satori is any kind of aha
66:33
Eureka phenomenon only specifically
66:36
applied to discovering who and what you
66:39
are the clear light is that you say I
66:43
saw the light it doesn’t necessarily
66:47
mean that there was the physical
66:48
hallucination of a flash it may mean
66:51
suddenly everything becomes transparent
66:54
that may be a way of feeling it it’s
66:56
just as the problem vanishes and you
66:58
stop asking the question I
67:07
what do you mean risk it the thing the
67:09
problem is no risk being God the risk is
67:11
being human

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4 Comments
  • claudia
    May 13, 2015

    dear sanjin,
    by “chance” i stumbled across the text that you wrote out from alan watts´ lecture “on being god”! thank you so much that you took the effort to present the video on your site along with this written part, – it is so profound!
    i like alan watts since long and also love to hear him talk even though, as you noticed yourself, he is not always easy to understand in these older recordings.

    anyway, thank you again, and all the best for your little family!
    claudia zachmann from germany

    • Sanjin Đumišić
      May 13, 2015

      Hello Claudia!

      I’m glad to know this transcript got read and as you say, it’s profound. It is amazing how elegantly Alan Watts still inspires people, with no other means than just simple audio recordings. That just shows the quality of those talks. Thanks for the comment, I appreciate to know people get here by “chance” and get something out of it.

      /All the best to you

  • Jacob
    October 19, 2018

    Thank you for the transcript, a very interesting Q&A indeed. I have only recently started listening to Allan Watts and was wondering if you have any recommendations for where to start? I know there is tons available, so I was wondering if you know of any similar talks he has given that might be available online? Thanks again, I hope you are well!